upset

last nights game was awesome.

i drank to much. my brother yelled at Vikings fans.

best Bears game i've been to since NFC Champ game.

underdogs

watching the BC Eagles take on U$C in the Emerald Bowl.

i don't really expect them to win, but a win would be great.

not looking too good so far. fingers crossed.

desperation

why is the bedroom so cold, turned away from your side.

solitude

wishing i was someplace else.

destinations

they will always mean more to me than i could ever put into words...

skin

violence works in mysterious ways.

mine

The pressures building and nothings fulfilling, slow down I can't keep running, The good word is you get what you deserve, I know my time is coming, Hey, Hey, Hey, I'm the only one left in my life, I am me and I am mine, So go ahead say that Im ill, But do you know what that really means?, Hey, Hey, Hey, Everyones open to heaven, but no ones open to death, that's why the entire world is a graveyard, Filled with those who lost their step, I'm the only one left in my life, I am me and I am mine, So go ahead say that I'm ill, But do you know what that really means? There's times I know I don't take care of myelf, So lost inside my mixed state mental health, We all bury oursleves, When we feel there's nothing left, We don't need jesus to please us, It's not as comforting as you'd like to guess.

failure

I am fine with dying with regrets, as long as I’ve never stopped

making attempts at the sky and tearing down the stars.

sickened

lush

brand new bottle of Templeton Rye. sweet.

allstar

distance

Why am I holding on to all these dreams
That are dragging me down,
Instead of leading me away from here.
There has got to be so much more than
All of this growing older and living life unfulfilled.

legend

back at Fenway

fuck what fireworks stand for

I was walking next to you in a saturday night-type light.
The faces blurred in with yours as I stumbled some words on life...
I was breathing thanks to you in a saturday night-type light.
And when the faceless kids danced towards faceless ends I quit life.

reminisce

I heard she lives in Brooklyn with the cool,
goes crazy over that New York scene on 7th Avenue.

determination

bayou

congrats to LSU on their College World Series Championship

home

beauté

I can't let you be, cause your beauty won't allow me
wrapped in white sheets,
like an angel from a bedtime story
and shut out what they say,
cause your friends are fucked up anyway
and when they come around,
somehow they feel up and you feel down.

blanket

born into the plan of making me

believe or making me decieve in the faith

I was raised twisting their devoted goals

by bending true history slowly slipping away,

away from my belief blind

faith in which you conceive so called divine,

never appealed to me

never question what was taught

cling to the righteousness which you got holding

the blanket of serenity falling away from sincerity faith will help us

it will save us nothing you could ever do could change the way I feel

help us save us help us save us from ourselves

I see no heaven, I see no hell

I just see us, just us

cling to the hope that it exists

falling further with every prayer

you whisper it won't save it won't save you.

forgotten

The neighbor boy is home from the war.
His father's pride...
It spills across the factory floor.
And Jimmy, in the paper, I saw you...
Holding that gun
And I read the interview about the 234 and the blood in the sand of an oil rich land.
While I was back home safe and clean.
John and Jimmy...
Say a prayer for us...
The passive sinners.
I bite my tongue.
I shake your hand.
Yeah, I'm still playing in that stupid band.
'Cause we all do what we gotta do, boys.

We're all doing whatever we can.

symmetry

saw Chuck Ragan on friday night at Reggies.
good times.

thrones

wait

i wont wait, i wont wait for nothing.

witness

Have you ever felt like you are wasting your whole life searching for something you can't find? there's been so much talk of so many slashed up wrists...but we're much too young to be dwelling on thoughts like this. so scrape your heart up from the bottom of the bottom of the barrel. keep your faith in the path that's growing narrow. kill the doubt inside your head. we overcome. we push ahead.

confessions

summer nights, city lights and the sounds of City and Colour.

mascara

'cause it's something about her
long shady eyes
I’m all about her
shade tonight

isolation

exactly...

deafening

Mogwai - Mogwai Fear Satan from La Blogotheque on Vimeo.

missed these guys when they came thru last month.
wished i hadn't. still one of the best, live.

vengeance

was out in the suburbs today and picked up Taxi Driver: Collectors Edition. the only movie that i love more than this one is Jaws.

tko

this was a sick hit. i thought havlat was dead at first.

speechless

good interview with a good guy.

Bane Interview HARDTIMES.CA

raincheck

Reach the Sky (Burning Fight, Phase 1) from hate5six productions on Vimeo.

hawkey

slacked on 2nd round predictions. This round goes like this...

Hawks over Red Wings in 7.
Penguins over Whalers in 6.

silverfuck

And she was my lover so sweet
And she was my angel
And what I've recovered of me
I put into a box underneath my bed

And you lie to yourself
When you lie in your bed

superheroes

this band changed my life. no, seriously.

Bane (Burning Fight, Phase 1) from hate5six productions on Vimeo.

icon

there will never be another.

blank

well I'm sorry my dear
never thought the end was so near
a heart full of snakes and a belly full of rage
has left me with a fistful of tears...

wish

Please just give me
a Chan Marshall eulogy
If I was ever anything at all
it's all breaking news to me
Breaking down in a rage
just to apologize
It's really so strange
watching all these strangers sigh
If feels like I'm living
through my last days every day
On your strongest of days
you couldn't make me feel any less insane
Wish the ongoing theme about me
wasn't "he's just crazy"
Wish I knew safety
Wish nothing phased me
Wish I felt more than just feelings of unrest
Wish the darkness didn't cloud me
Wish I wasn't an emotional wreck

beards

NHL Playoffs First Round Predictions

EAST
Bruins over Canadians
Capitals over Rangers
Canes over Devils
Flyers over Penguins

WEST
Sharks over Ducks
Wings over Jackets
Canucks over Blues
Blackhawks over Flames

a preferred blur

new Henry Rollins book, A Preferred Blur arrived the other day.
about a quarter of the way through and great stuff as usual.
limited autographed first edition. my copy is 910/1000


Henry Rollins Signs Books from Musictoday on Vimeo.

play ball

2009 MLB baseball predicitions:

NL

East: Mets
Central: Cubs
West: Dodgers
Wild Card: Phillies

MVP: Carlos Beltran
Cy Young: Carlos Zambrano

AL

East: Red Sox
Central: Twins
West: Angels
Wild Card: Rays

MVP: Kevin Youkilis
Cy Young: Roy Halliday

bear down

this has me beyond excited. regardless of whether Jay Cutler succeeds or fails as a member of the Chicago Bears, i am excited because for once the Bears went out and made a bold move. This is something this team hasnt done in what seems like forever. They gave up what many are saying is alot, but it doesnt bother me much as the bears seem to fritter away their first round picks anyhow. cant wait for camp to open in august.

when all your friends gave come and gone...

such a great song.

i know it's over

love this. almost as sad as the original.

history of the Bruins

cant wait to watch this.
the Blackhawks one better be coming soon...

green river

the dying of the Chicago River St Patricks Weekend 2009

i've lent a hand in destroying humanity

"PURGATORY" by Indecision from kris baldwin on Vimeo.

countin the days till may first.

burning fight

best weekend of the year...



- Friday May 1st
Wait In Vain
Indecision
Converge

- Saturday May 2nd
Thought Crusade
Convicted
Soul Control
Damnation A.D.
Betrayed
Ringworm
Guilt
Underdog
108
Killing Time
Trial
Disembodied

- Sunday May 3rd
Harm's Way
The Killer
Blacklisted
Have Heart
Threadbare
Split Lip
Reach the Sky
Bane
Converge
Unbroken

crushing my spirit

Disembodied are near perfection.
cant wait to see them in a few months.
so good...



Eulogy

These scars I wear never seem to heal
these scars i wear have never seemed so real
these scars i wear define my fate
these scars i wear have turned to hate
for now i run away from my problems
cowering from my fear
unable to confront my oppressor
unable to contest against myself
I dig this hole within my soul for me to hide
with each moment I'm more buried alive
I dig this hole within my soul for me to hide
How much will it take to fill this emptiness inside
these costumes we wear prefabricated
yet we're never satisfied within our niche
but as we search for the next mold
i ask you is this fashion a reflection of who i am
of who we are, of who you are
or is it my new new new ...label
I sing this song in honor for all who've died
I sing this song in honor for all who are dead.

past to present

while the Blackhawks are my team when it comes to hockey, the Bruins hold an almost equal place in my heart...

nothing more

Verse called it quits today and it will be sad to see them go. they were one of the bands going today that still got me excited to listen and be apart of hardcore music. ive been around long enough to know that the usual life cycle of a hardcore band is extremely short. so i never took what Verse did for granted, Aggression was a great note to go out with. they will be missed.

bleed black and gold.

my Milan Lucic jersey finally arrived today from Canada. I ordered this way back in November and was beginning to get worried it had gotten lost in the mail, since prior jerseys ordered from the same place have come quicker. sweet jersey.

and a video for good measure...

from the one you left behind

i've come to wish you an unhappy birthday
i've come to wish you an unhappy birthday
'cause you're evil
and you lie
and if you should die
i may feel slightly sad
(But i won't cry)

welcome to gävle

it is my mission in life to go visit this thing and see it with my very own eyes. apparently it is built every year and there is a strong chance that it gets burned down, every other year or so.

a dreaded sunny day...

i'll be back for you some day

a week and a half or so i got a new phone. im usually fairly behind on technology, so this is my first phone with a camera on it. thus i am easily amused by taking photos of beer.

In the absence of your smiling face

great pop song. the video, not so much.

Morrissey - I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris